Looking up (revised and better)
by: Rockerdude412

The car pulled into my driveway with an abrupt stop. We said our goodbyes, and I jumped out. After they pulled away, I plopped myself on the lawn. I was going to lay there until I found an answer. The event I just returned from drained me. I couldn't stand all the conversation. When I got the call to go, I thought fun. It didn't turn out that way, unfourtunatley. But I didn't want to focus on that. I stared at the stars. I tried to find Orion's belt, the only contellation I knew. It was the only one I remembered from our stars study in second grade, and whenever I got a chance to look up, I would look for the belt first. It was so simple and easy, you couldn't miss it. And I never did.

Later, I found myself forming my own constellations with their own perfect stories. Ones that ended happily, with no problems. Ones totally unlike my life. Then I thought, what if I was a star? I could hang in the sky, and be studied greatly. I could be away from everyone and everything. The sky is an oasis, not a danger.

After thinking and making so many stories, I closed my eyes. I started dreaming about the unknown, what I did know, and what I wanted answers to. I began dreaming about ducks and snickers, code for people I knew. But I didn't see the people. I saw ducks. I couldn't explain the reasoning behind it, but I did have weird dreams.

When I opened my eyes, I knew I had been sleeping. My back was wet, from morning dew, and I was very groggy. My brain was sending signals to get up, but my muscles wouldn't move. I was too comfortable to move. I watched stars begin to hide and cars drive by. I watched my life pass me by. And best of all, I didn't care.


I slept on the lawn that night. When I arose, I felt good. Strangely, I had sorted out all my confusing thoughts. That night was perfect for me. Now, whenever I peer up at the stars, I search for Orion's belt. It's like hope for me, that some things are still the same. At night, I'll look for those three stars, and I won't look down 'till I find it.





may.2.2004.